You know, it's weird sometimes...I just had a conversation with Matt where he basically told me that I had zero self-confidence (yeah, I know, what a shocker) and that if I was going to continue acting like that, no one would want me. I mean, I know I'm not exactly my biggest fan here, but I always kinda felt that I was justified in thinking that. But I'm not sure anymore. It's like when someone tells a joke and everyone gets the punchline but you. Wonder what it would be like to look in the mirror and see what the hell everyone else sees in me. I don't know...Somewhere down the line I forgot who I was, and it's like now that I'm stripping and doing porn and all that I'm starting to figure out who I am. And you know what? It's not that bad. It could certainly be worse I guess.