Sunday, June 7, 2009
Well...This Isn't Good
It's official: members of my family know I'm working at Adonis right now. Fuck Fuck Fucking Fuckedy Fuck McFucksocks. And shit. This isn't good. This is like the most not good thing that could happen to me right now. Shitballs.
And before you ask, no, I'm not 100% sure who told them or how they found out. Right now, my theory is that my cousin who follows me on Twitter read about it and told some of them, which really doesn't do much to help matters. And if she's not the one who told them, then someone else did, and that would also be really, really bad. Not good. SOOOOO not good.
Anyways, if I'm right, and my cousin was the one who told them, that means she probably knows about my porn career, and they know my porn name, and shit shit shit shit shit shit this is bad. I really really hate that someone would tell my family behind my back about this. I really do. I hate the fact that I have to lie to my family about what I do, because there's nothing wrong with what I do, it's just the society we're raised in. I wanted to tell them when I was ready, and the fact that they heard it from someone else pisses me off to know end. I know you can't see me right now because this is the internet, except I guess you can see someone over the internet, but that's not how blogs work, except for vlogs, but sorry, going off on tangents, a little panicky right now, anyways, I know you can't see me, but right now I'm shaking pretty hard and trying not to completely break down. I'm a little scared right now about the very likely possibility that my mother won't speak to me when she finds out. I just I had more time is all. Anyways, right now, just gonna try not to freak out too bad, and maybe it won't be so bad.
Or maybe they will. That's the part I'm worried about.